The Forty Diaries The 1980's "I've got a suitcase full of memories that I almost left behind" Time after Time, Cyndi Lauper
If you haven't been to a Mortified performance, you should! It's one of the most genious things I've seen and you will laugh your arse off. I was inspired by the brave souls who have been disclosing their teen diaries onstage, and while I'm not quite ready to stand up there myself, I thought I'd share a bit of my journal beginning at the tender age of age 14.
Age fourteen was one of the most tumultuous years of my life. At the start of fourteen I lived in Southern California. Like Midwest Mom I was sans parental structure, and given way too much freedom. Also, I had an older sister who could sneak me in to bars on the Sunset strip in Hollywood. Once I found myself in Axel Rose's apartment. Once I was hanging out with Tommy Lee doing cocaine (him not me). Once I was caught by the police in a hotel room watching MTV while my sister was going at it with Blackie Lawless from W.A.S.P. in the bathroom. It was during this time that my mom informed me that we were moving to Kansas. Two days after Christmas of 1984 we were on a plane to the midwest.
12-27-84 Tues, Day 1
Dear Diary, Today was the most depressing day of my life. Mom got me up at 4:00 in the morning to get ready to leave [for Kansas]. When I left my sister it was so sad. I cried all the way to the aiport & then as soon as we got inside the house in Kansas I cried for a really long time again. I can't even believe that I'm not in California right now. I'm trying to pretend I don't know it's Kansas. It sucks so bad here I'm a city girl & it's all country here. I hate it. I'm going to stay with g-maw this summer & I'm not coming back! If I can help it.
I Miss Tom & my sister & Joanna & California & everything.
12-29-84 SAT, Day 3
Dear Diary, I can't believe how miserable I am here in Kansas. Even when I moved to Huntington Beach I wasn't miserable this long! I miss everybody so so much!
I really don't think I can make it 'til summer. I haven't even seen one person my age yet & schools (Jr. Highs) go up to 9th grade instead of 8th. Damien and my sister are supposedy getting married next Dec. 24. If they do, which I really doubt, I'll move in with them. Well gotta go. Maggie
1-3-84 Thurs, Day 8
Dear Diary, Well I started school today & believe me, I was the talk of the whole school. Everyone was staring at me, I guess because of my makeup and clothes. I was wearing a flourescent orangish shirt & pants outfit, my camouflauge socks, black high tops & a lace T-shirt over my shirt. Not bad, what's so different about that? Some people, most, were really nice. Others were jerks, but nothing severe. I can handle it. I wanna go home soon. I still hate Kansas & always will. Prince is playing here. Oh well. Maggie
1-4-85 Fri, Day 9
Dear Diary, Well, it's friday & I have no plans for the weekend, except I might look for a pair of shoes or boots tomorrow, wow! I meat a really nice girl today named Jane. She wants to take me shopping. I can tell just by talking 2 her that she's rich. She said she shops alot (1 clue!) anyway I wouldn't mind going to Kansas City with her sometime. Today was better than yesterday at school. I noticed a lot of girls wore florescent clothes today! I'm starting a fad already. I miss California. Do u know what happened 2 the drummer of Def Leppard Rick Allan? He got in a car accident & got his arm cut off. They put it back on though. Amazing what doctor's can do these days!
I wanna go home! Maggie
p.s. I just now heard that they had 2 amputate Rick Allans arm. god thats SO SAD!